Thursday, 26 February 2015

Dance! Art! Passion!


Dance.. My Passion!!

For those who did not read my previous post, I am a professional bharatnatyam dancer. While training one is under the impression that completing their arangetram (in other words graduation in dance) is the most difficult phase. Instead after a few years of completing your Arangetram is that you realize that was the easy part. That was the part that was completely in your hands!

The steps to achieve that is very simple:
1.     Listen to every piece of advice and every tiny bit of correction from your Guru (Dance teacher)
2.     Practice like your life depends on it. As if you are drowning in bad dance moves.. and practice is the only way you can save yourself!
3.     Then.. Practice some more.
4.     And there you have it! All movements on taal with correct timing, perfect expressions,  A Spectacular show! You finally achieve the goal, to see pride in your guru and parents eyes. To realize you are a tiny source of inspiration for your colleagues and juniors. That’s the dream!

But.. Once you have achieved that.. What after that?? Does the journey of a dancer end there?  No, that was just a milestone. For a dancer, her journey never ends..

So, the next step, which we never anticipated is the struggle to keep our art alive, to perform with all our heart and soul, to take it to the next level. Moving to Perth, I realised to perform you don’t need talent but you need a BARBIE DOLL FIGURE AND A PLASTIC SMILING FACE!!! Even if someone is a horrible dancer but has “the looks” gets the opportunity?!?! Isn’t that ironical? A dancer, a performer being judged by their external physical beauty and not by their talent!

Offcourse, you aren’t judged by that criteria all the time, but I guess it is that most of the times! And I’m sure; everyone has faced that some time or the other in their life, where they aren’t scrutinized on their talent or merit but on some aspect that is completely baseless. Which honestly makes no sense, according to me!

Nevertheless, any performer puts their soul in their art along with years and years of hard work and dedication. So, is it worth, giving up your passion because some jerks don’t appreciate you and your art? Not at all!! Instead that should be taken up as a challenge! To prove a point to the “jerks”! and even more than the "jerks" is to prove it to yourself!

Today, I take this platform, to make a promise to myself that i wont let my art die, that I wont let the dancer in me die. I wont let anyone get me down, because I know my worth and standing as a dancer! and I wont let anyone else change my perspective!

Now its your turn, are you an artist, sportsperson, poet or any other talented individual? is your talent dying? who is to blame.. just us! I encourage all of you'll too, to make a pledge to yourself, don't let your talent die! Be the person you envisioned yourself to be! 
Please feel free to post comments and share your story and struggle to keep your art alive, Im sure it will be an inspiration to all of us! Also leave comments about my blog, whether you liked it or not? and any suggestions for my next post are welcome. 

- Confused Gyani.

Wednesday, 18 February 2015

My First Post! The Confused Gyani


Okay.. So my first post.. Like my name suggests, The Confusedgyani.. ofcourse I have to be confused regarding what my first blog has to be about. I had shortlisted a few options but then I decided, my first blog should be about my journey and me until now. 
So, to introduce myself.. I am not so average Indian girl from the heart of the country Maharashtra but I cant speak Marathi except a few phrases and atta majhi satakli!(obvious!) I completed my graduation in the healthcare industry, but I work as an administrator. I am a professional bharatnatyam dancer but love dancing to Bollywood and hip-hop tunes.  I have lived a major chunk of my life in India, currently in Australia (Perth) but my favorite city was and will always remain Hong Kong.
I’m sure, you get the idea why I decided to go with the blogging name of Confusedgyani, ok ok I get it.. the confused is justified, but why gyani. Gyani is actually a Sanskrit word (for those of who didn’t know) wich means an intellectual person. Now according to me, I am an intellectual person (Not just according to me..!! My degree says and excellent marks say it all).
All my life I have lived by the book, abiding to all the rules and regulations, under the impression that if you work hard and give your 100% to something nothing is impossible (Which is a lie BTW!!!) and that if you are a nice person and do good Karma, that good will multiply 10 folds and return to you (Again a lie). But does that mean I turned into a lazy bum who decided not to work because my 100% fetched only 80% results, who decided to go ahead and give a tight slap to those nasty people who I have to bear everyday. NO!!! Because I am more mature than that! But its difficult to realize and accept that the amazing foolproof plans you based your life on can disappear within seconds. That you reach a crossroad in life where you are puzzled as to what should be the next step? And since your previous plans didn’t work out you start to question everything. If you have decided on one path, will it take you a step closer to your goal or will it take you 10 steps back? That is currently my situation. Hence the Confusedgyani!

I want to know is it only me? Who is so confused at all possible times! I mean there are times, when I can decide which soft drink to ask for with my meal order. So, please let me know whether you are as confused as me or less or EVEN MORE!! Also, if you have any advice or tips to clear my confusion, please be my guest.  Please also leave comments about my first blog, whether you liked it or no? and any suggestions for my next post are welcome. J

- Confused Gyani.